Well goodness only knows where last nights blog has disappeared to? I must of been having a blonde moment! Could of sworn i'd pressed publish but theres no sign of it today? Well i've had a fairly good day today. This afternoon was swimming lessons. This used to be a massive problem for me but i've sorted it by not going on the school coach. I couldn't go on the coach because it causes me too much anxiety. Absolutely nothing at all to do with the coach itself but the fact that it drops us off and leaves us there. Its the being stuck there with no means of getting away that bothers me. So I drive there but a friend comes in the car with me as I can't do it alone. All very complicated I know but i'm still managing to do it. I'm usually absolutely fine while i'm there too. So with a little tweak i'm managing to do my job. There's no doubt that my agoraphobia would be measurably better if I didn't put myself through the torture of work but I see it as a means to an end. The sooner I can save enough money to pay off the mortgage then I will retire. So in the meantime I will keep plodding on and try to reduce my outgoings and any other means to also save the most money I can.
Tonight we had pasta with bacon in and I made a sauce from philadelphia. I had peppers and mushrooms in mine. It was nice but I think I will put more sauce in it next time as I thought mine was a little dry. It was still edible though so thats fine. I'm not going out with my friend tomorrow night too to save money. I've said we will make it just for treats or special occassions. Boring I know but I am just so determined to do this. I am really proud of the fact that i've not bought one takeaway or been out for any meals. I used to do these things as way to get out and about, a type of self therapy for the agoraphobia. This is a real worry that if I don't go out much due to trying to save the money that I may regress. I will have to really watch that. Well tomorrow i'm going to check my bank account and find out exactly how much money I have to live on for the rest of the month and make sure I don't go over that budget. Hopefully I may even save some extra. Will update you on that tomorrow. I had a look at what seeds I may need and looks like apart from some lettuce and cress I will be fine. Anyone know if they will still be ok though as i've kept them in a tin in the greenhouse. I hope so or it will be a very expensive learning curve. Right i've waffled on for long enough now so i'll say goodnight until tomorrow. Have a good Friday everyone.
Jules x