Day started with me stuck on the loo as the adrenaline surged through my system. What a great start. This is the problem when I have to do anything out of my ordinary routine. Its the anticipatory anxiety that always causes me the most trouble. I went to work and tried to put it to the back of my mind. When hubby said they were leaving for the afternoon I felt the panic rising inside me. It was almost unbearable at times as it came in waves but I managed to hold on. At lunchtime I went for a run to the shop with 2 of my colleagues. This was a little bit stressful but I needed to be doing something. After lunch I just got my head down and worked, trying not to think too much. This seemed to work as I managed to calm down a little bit  but was still quite anxious for most of the afternoon until Hubby was back to work. Because of all this I have still be running on adrenaline all evening and even though I feel shattered emotionally my mind is still very active. Going to try to have a cup of tea and a reasonably early night as have got to go on a school trip topmorrow. What a week i've got!!! On the positive side I did manage to stay at work today and then I walked the dog which felt strangely easier tonight so thats progress. I'm desperate to get out in the garden and greenhouse this weekend so i'm hoping the weather is good. Want to try to grow as many fruit and vegetables as I can. I'm going to ask around for empty containers to fill.  Thinking of getting some raspberries too this year now Hubby has cleared a space.
On the spending front I did have to spend some money tonight as we needed items for packed lunches tomorrow. Decided this was cheaper than buying lunch out so it's not as bad as it sounds. Tea tonight was chicken curry with chicken defrosted from freezer and vegetables I had in the fridge so no further spending there.Also can you believe it that Hubby tonight actually suggested to me that we cancel the gym membership and get out while the weather is good! Result!!! So thats £60 a month I can save.
Right i'm off for this early night. Take care everyone and thanks for reading
Jules x